suppression please

“i want to know”
“i hate to know”
“i need to know”
do I?
“now i know”
“now i drink”
“now i suppress”

for those who asked why – and found an answer – that went against what was taught – by those we love

for those who now live – with knowledge – that poisoned our childhood dreams, prayers, and hopes

for those who now search – for more answers – to justify our actions – our parents – our lives

are you there? I am alone? In a world of others – who do not see – do not ask

suppression please.